Apologies in advance for the long/rambling post.
This was supposed to be a short 'hi, I'm back', but I typed (a lot) more than I intended. Footnotes added at the bottom for those who don't want to read the whole thing.
I'm sure I haven't typed what I wanted to say very well either, so sorry if it comes across wrong.

I joined this forum a while ago (don't expect anyone to remember me though, as I didn't post much), but I left. I also took a break from the piano. The poor thing's been gathering a lot of dust over the last year.

I had a lot of trouble before with nerves before (I still do). No end in sight for that one.

I still hate the constant conflict of wanting to do something, yet at the same time not wanting to (scared to).
I had trouble finding a teacher, then had trouble finding the right teacher. Around here it seems almost impossible to find a teacher who
a) Teaches adults and
b) Teaches adults seriously.
The people I found were either "one size fits all" or "you're an adult so you'll be happy if I teach you to bash out a couple of tunes while we chat about 'stuff'".
The last teacher I found had a habit of saying things like "that wasn't quite right, but as you're and adult/not doing exams we wont work on that".
I know they probably didn't mean anything by it, but it came across as a little...patronising.
I did try telling them that I
wanted to work on it, but I had to tell them
every time.
Them: 'That's not quite right, but we don't need to work on it because you're an adult/just learning for fun/not doing exams etc...'
Me: 'I
want to work on it.'
Them: 'Oh...ok'
*work on it for a minute*Next time: 'That's not quite right, but...'
**scream** 
In the teachers' defense I probably wasn't as 'forceful' (not sure if that's the right word?) saying it as I could (should?) have been, but I still have trouble speaking up.

I even went so far as to change my mind and say I did want to do exams, but that didn't change anything. I still got the 'since you're just learning for fun and not doing exams' bit.
It was like they didn't even hear me...or maybe they just didn't believe me?
Please Note: I don't think there's anything wrong with just learning for fun. In fact that's exactly what I was (and will be) doing. But for me fun = learning properly. I'll never be happy just bashing out a couple of tunes while chatting to someone about how my week was. 
Maybe I was expecting too much from lessons? There never seemed to be any structure to them. Or maybe there was a structure to the lessons and I just missed it?
I was never given any set pieces. The few tunes I know now, I picked out myself and taught myself at home. Took them in for the inevitable 'play something...that was ok...play something else'.
Not that it matters now. I've decided that I've had a long enough break from the keys, so I'm starting up again.
This time however, I'm without a teacher. Not completely by choice though, I just can't afford lessons at the moment.

Though I think that, if I had to go through the stress of finding someone again...well... **AHHHHH!!!!**
Short story...Couldn't conquer my nerves.
Got fed up with the 'just for fun/let's chat and bash out some tunes' attitude of the teacher.
Took a break.
Came back, but can't afford lessons, so I'm on my own.
*stillhavingtocheckeverythingatleastadozentimesbeforesendingHidden*Apologies again for the 'post overload'